I Think I Need to Eat More

Warning: this is probably going to be very rambly and all over the place. I’m sure I could spend some time editing it and trying to make it more coherent, but I think I’d end up censoring myself or changing the message of my thoughts, so I’m just going to go with it. Messy and uncensored and all.

Last week I read a number of articles about food. Specifically, how the heck much food do we need to eat. (You probably saw them in my link love post).

The resounding message was that the majority of us are under eating.

I thought about it.

Then I thought about it some more.

I reasoned that I am likely under eating.

Because of that I need to eat more. (duh!)

Now, here’s where it gets tricky for me…..A year ago I weighed nearly 10 pounds less than I do now. I saw a number on the scale I hadn’t seen in years. To be completely, brutally honest, I liked it. I liked seeing that number. Heck, I probably even valued that number.

But – here’s the kicker I wasn’t healthy.

I did not lose the weight in a healthy way. I lost the weight through stress. And not eating. And drinking lots of wine. And not sleeping.

I may weigh 10 pounds more, but I’m also probably in the best shape I’ve even been in. I just finished a week where I ran nearly 86km. In ONE FREAKING WEEK. I remember getting into running and being amazed at running 100km in a MONTH, let alone a week.

The logical part of my brain knows I’m healthier now that I was a year ago. That part of my brain also knows I need to eat more. It even knows that if I were to eat more I’d probably lose weight because I’d be feeling my body properly.

The hard part is actually getting there.

See, back in the day of disordered eating I made up these food “rules” for myself and they’ve become so ingrained in my life that I still abide by them, mostly:

  • don’t drink juice, juice has calories and is therefore bad
  • don’t eat pasta
  • dinner should consist only of protein and veggies
  • don’t eat after 10pm
  • don’t drink your calories
  • always order the salad instead of the fries
  • don’t snack after lunch – hold out until dinner
  • 1200 is the magic number <– ugh. Barf.
  • treats should be “earned” through exercise
  • it’s okay to eat a lot after a long run, but only one meal

I’m sure there are more than just this, but these are the ones that come to mind, and I have a really hard time getting them out of my head.

Do I think I still suffer from disordered eating? No. I don’t. I can and have and will do things that are “against” my “rules” and I don’t feel guilty about it, I don’t feel like I have to exercise it off and I don’t beat myself up. But regardless, those feelings are still there.

Sometimes I think about going to get a body fat and metabolic analysis done. I think if science told me I need to eat 2400 calories a day to maintain my level of exercise, I’d have an easier time doing it. But when I go to a site (like this one) and enter in my height and weight to determine my RMR, I’m…..hesitant. I’m hesitant to believe that what it’s telling me is accurate.

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Yup. I put my weight on the blog. I figured I could dance around it, but I’ve decided to OWN IT! 😀

From reading Giselle’s post on RMR, there’s still some math to be done…See that 1513 number is only 70% of my metabolic function, I still need to add 30% to it to account for doing something other than just laying in bed (no matter how sloth-like I can be at times) plus what I burn when running. Let me tell you, what I burn when running can be a lot.

Pre-exercise I should be consuming ~1960 calories.

Umm, what?! That’s a heck of a lot of calories, yo. Definitely far more than I eat, even with the booze I sometimes consume.

So.

Yeah.

I think I need to eat more.

And…I’m working on it.

Tell me: Do you think you’re eating enough? How does your intake compare to the RMR calculator?

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Since it’s Thursday and I’m rambling on and on, I’m linking up with Amanda for Thinking Out Loud. ❤

Picky About Bananas

Last week I added Picky About Bananas to my Twitter profile and my blog header, and I thought it might be time to explain this.

This originally started out as a joke with a few friends. If you ask if there are any foods I dislike, I’d likely originally tell you, “Not really” and then as we discussed it more, you’d come to learn that I have a few qualifiers as they relate to food. Especially bananas.

See, I like bananas. I eat a banana nearly every day.

However (and this however is a big one) I will not eat a banana with spots. I prefer my bananas somewhat on the green side. As soon as I spot a spot, my bananas become baking or smoothie bananas and not snacking bananas.

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These bananas became smoothie bananas.

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These bananas are acceptable for eating.

On top of my issue with spots on bananas, I also don’t really like the smell of bananas. If I’m eating the banana it’s not a big deal, but if you are eating a banana and I am not, the smell is quite off-putting. I’ll probably email Ann and Heather and tell them I had to, ugh, smell a banana. Ew.

Of course bananas aren’t the only food I’m picky about…

  • Cantaloupe and honeydew melons. Just ick. I love fruit. I love fruit salad. If your fruit salad contains any of the two aforementioned melons I will avoid it at all costs. It’s gross, cheap, filler fruit. Pass.
  • Apples. I like apples, I really do, but the peel. Oh, the peel. The way is squeaks on my teeth just drives me absolutely insane and I cannot handle it. At all. It’s a weird sensory thing for sure. Sorry apples, I miss you.
  • Milk. I don’t dislike dairy products, I think cheese is amazing, but milk kind of grosses me out. However, I will drink milk in a latte without a second thought. But you won’t ever catch me drinking a glass of cold milk. Hork.
  • Red onions. These are probably the only food I’ll actually not eat. I love Greek salad, but will eat around the red onions, I just can’t do it. At all.

Tell me: What’s your weirdest food quirk?

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Let’s Have Coffee

Happy Friday Eve, my friends!

I really, truly LOVE Thursdays. I think it started when Grey’s Anatomy moved from Sunday to Thursday as I’d look forward to Thursday all week! Now I get to look forward to Grey’s and Scandal and Parenthood and Suits (seriously, if you haven’t discovered Suits, you need to watch it). I also make myself a yummy dinner and enjoy a glass of wine while watching my favourite shows.

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If we were hanging out at my place enjoying coffee (or maybe even a glass of wine) here’s what I’d tell you…

I’d tell you

I’m sick of winter. I feel like a major whiner constantly talking about the weather and how crappy it is, especially when I can’t do anything about it, but I’m really really sick of the cold and snow.

I’d tell you

I’m sick of feeling down and negative because of the weather. I really am a positive person (I promise!) but I feel like the weather has me down. I’ve been daydreaming of beach vacations for the past two weeks, but sadly, I am not in a position to actually take said beach vacation, so I’m stuck with daydreaming. For now…

I’d tell you…

I’m thinking of ways to sneak myself into a suitcase bound for Phoenix. How unfair is it that my friend is going to Phoenix and I’m stuck here in the snow?!

That said, I’m thinking of going to Nicaragua sometime in the next year. Another friend just got back from two weeks there and she said she loved it. I’ve also always wanted to learn how to surf (I had plans to take lessons before my trip to Hawaii was cancelled last year) so, Nicaragua? Maybe?

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Not Nicaragua. Still a beach.

I’d tell you

I’m obsessed with The Good Wife. I started it on Netflix a few weeks ago when I was home sick and have been watching as many episodes as I can since. I’m already nearly done Season 3.

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No spoilers please! I know something crazy happened this weekend, but I’m going to wait until I get to that episode to read about it!

I’d tell you…

I’m feeling pretty good about my training so far. My Monday and Tuesday runs felt great and I’m working on a plan for the rest of the week. The run I’m not really looking forward to is Sunday. It looks like I’ll be running indoors, which is less than desirable. Does anyone have any good plans for passing 3 hours on a treadmill?

I’d tell you…

I really like rest days. I also really like running days. However, there’s something relaxing about knowing I can just go home, put on my PJ’s and chill for the evening. (Which watching The Good Wife, of course).

Tell me: If we were having coffee, what would you tell me?

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Thinking Out Loud: 3/20

First off: Happy first day of Spring.

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Woo!

How’s the weather where you are?

Considering Calgary can get snow any month of the year, I’m cautiously excited about spring, and I won’t be taking the winter tires off my car until mid-May <– not a joke!

But, it’s spring 😀

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Last week I talked a bit about why I don’t talk much about food, or do WIAW posts on the blog. I loved all of your comments and knowing how much you all like seeing what people are eating, I think I’m going to try to post my eats periodically. I probably won’t do it every week (I’m really not that organized) but I’ll try to do it at least monthly, especially as my training increases and I need to eat MOAR FOOD.

This week I wanted to talk about something similar: why I don’t post workouts on my blog.

A lot of HLB’s (or, healthy living bloggers) post quick circuit workouts on their blogs throughout the week and yet, I don’t.

So why is that?

I’m not a personal trainer

This is my main reason, I’m not a personal trainer. While I love fitness and exercise and have spent a lot of time learning, I’m not qualified to give you any real fitness advice and I don’t know your body or what you need.

I’m not creative

This is also a big one, I’m not fully creative enough to come up with a great workout for you. I’d likely just be slapping a bunch of different exercises together because I can and not because it’s 1) a good workout and 2) the best workout.

There are better options than me

Really. There are. There are so many options out there for amazing workouts you can do at home. I mentioned the Nike Training Club app yesterday (if you didn’t download it yesterday – why?! It’s free and awesome! And, no Nike didn’t pay me to talk about their awesomeness), this is probably one of my favourite ways to get a great workout in. Another awesome resource is the Greatist site. They have a workout posted each day that you can do. I’ve followed their workouts off and on for a while and I really like them. They’re designed to be quick and effective and I find them wonderfully challenging.

Sure, I could slightly modify a workout from the NTC app, or Greatist, but that doesn’t seem very honest, and I’d rather you check out the app and the site to see if it works for you. Just because they work for me, doesn’t mean you’re going to love them.

There are some awesome bloggers out there who are trainers and who do post great workouts, I’m just not one of them. Maybe one day, but for now I’ll stick to running and doing what other people tell me to do 😉

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Thanks Amanda for hosting!

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Thinking Out Loud: 3/6

First off, a big happy birthday to my dad today!! 🙂

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Today, I wanted to talk about my favourite part of my day.

Well, I actually have two favourite parts of my day. One is when my alarm goes off and I sigh in frustration, but then remember getting out of bed means coffee. So I get out of bed to get some 🙂 I’ve been waking up earlier this past week, at 6:20 instead of 7:00 and it’s been giving me time to eat breakfast and get to work on time. We’ll see how this goes after the time change on the weekend…

My actual favourite part of my day is when I get to bed and get Merlin snuggles.

He rarely wants to snuggle when we’re on the couch, but as soon as it’s bed time, it’s snuggle time!! I’ll get into bed and read and at some point he’ll wander in and meow at the side of the bed. I’m not sure if he waits for me to invite him up, or if he really just takes 20 seconds to decide to jump up. I’m going to pretend he waits for the invitation 🙂

If I had someone around, I’d take a picture of how Merlin and I snuggle, but since I live alone, that’s not really possible. Plus, if I didn’t live alone, I probably wouldn’t have this weird snuggle ritual with my cat 😛

After he hops up on the bed, he waits for me to make room beside me and crook my right arm out similar to that of someone doing the robot.

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My arm positioning is not dissimilar to this.

Once I’ve assumed the position (<– that’s what she said) Merlin will use my bicep as a pillow and curl up to sleep. And the purrs. The purrs make this the best. This guys purrs like his life is complete and it just warms my heart.

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Sometimes I think it would be cool if people could purr like cats. Like, when you’re hanging out with someone and they really really make you happy, you’d just start to purr. Then I realized I’d probably also hiss, and, well, there are a few people that I don’t think I’d be able to keep from hissing at. Oops.

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Thanks to Amanada for the link up!

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Tell me: What’s the favourite part of your day?

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Thinking Out Loud: 2/27

Am I the only one that feels like February absolutely flew by?

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I swear it was just the beginning of February last week!

Today I want to chat about sick.

I feel like I’ve spent a lot of this winter sick – and I don’t like it. I was hoping resting at home yesterday would have helped with feeling sick, but I woke up not feeling so great today. I don’t have the flu, just a head cold, but I’m so fed up with not feeling 100% that I’m frustrated.

Since I’m back at work today I grabbed my sick drink: a grande no whip caramel apple spice. I crave these when I’m sick.

I also crave anything on white bread and either pho or wonton soup. Things that aren’t always good for me, but they taste good and comfort me. (I plan on consuming pho and watching Scandal tonight after a nap, it sounds like such a good way to spend an evening).

I’m hoping I’m able to get rid of this with lots of sleep because I really don’t want to miss six weeks of training again – that’ll put me too far behind to catch up for my 50k in June.

On that note……

Tell me:

  1. What do you crave when sick? Do you have a drink or food you like to consume?

  2. What are your tried and true ways for kicking a cold in the butt?

Please forgive the briefness of this post – my brain feels like it’s full of cotton.

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Thinking Out Loud: 2/20

It seems crazy that I’ve been waiting for this day to arrive since June! JUNE!

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This trip started out as my friend Lexie and I trying to convince some of our friends to come run SeaWheeze with us in 2014….since there were weddings and vacations and such, many gals couldn’t make it, but Kelly mentioned she’d be running the Disney half marathon.

Originally we thought we’d aim for the January race but since it was sold out, we decided on February. Then, because I’m insane, I suggested the Glass Slipper Challenge and in a little over 24 hours we had six people confirmed for a trip to Florida.

And now it’s here!!!!!

As you read this I’m likely in the air on my way to Jacksonville to see Kelly and then tomorrow we’ll be driving to Orlando.

ORLANDO!!!!!

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We did actually look to see if The Book of Mormon was playing in Orlando when we were there (because how awesome would that be?!) but it wasn’t.

I feel like it’s been forever since I was able to take any kind of a vacation, so I’m so so stinking excited to get away for five days, even if two of those days include waking up at 3:30am and running two races. Whatever. I can nap and lay by the pool and drink beer and margaritas and eat Mexican and do some shopping and laugh until I cry and my stomach hurts.

I’ll be back next week with a recap of all the fun!

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Thinking Out Loud: 2/13

Who’s ready for some random?!

I know I am!!

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Once again, thanks to the awesome Amanda (aka – Spoons) for hosting!!

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I’m going to be hanging out with Merlin tomorrow. That will be my Valentine’s Day.

Up until about 10 days ago I had dinner plans, but #lifehappens and they were cancelled, so instead I shall be opening up a bottle of wine, cooking up a steak and chilling with my favourite Valentine, Merlin.

Cats really do make the best Valentine’s.

Is it super lame of me to admit I’m hanging out alone? *shrug* Whatever. I know I’m awesome.

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It turns out the reason I’m currently single is because I’m too perfect. 😉

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See?

I thought it was because I spent 20 minutes laying on the bathroom floor playing with my cat and taking pictures of him.

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I feel like I’m finding my stride (ha! see what I did there?) with running this week.

Last week was certainly an off week, but I do feel like I’m killing it this week.

For my speedwork on Tuesday I took my beta-alanine and man, that stuff is amazing. It has a super weird side effect in that it makes your skin tingle, but it sure does reduce fatigue! Bam!

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I’m addicted to watching the Olympics. Addicted.

This weekend I will run and then plant my bum on the couch for the remainder of each day to watch as much coverage as a can.

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I’ve also decided I should compete in the biathlon. I can’t really ski, and I’m not so good at shooting, but it looks like a sport I can possibly learn? Maybe?

Problem: I have next to no upper body strength – I should probably work on that.

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I’ve been swamped at work this week. It’s been awesome; however, this means I’m so far behind reading and commenting on blogs and responding to comments.

By the time I get home and run, I’m done. I plant my bum on the couch and then go to bed at 10. Yup, I have a grandma bedtime.

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I’m pretty certain The Mindy Project is my new favourite show. I loves it. So much.

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I think I’ll add catching up on Season 2 to my list of things to do this weekend 🙂

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In seven days I will be in Florida and I can’t freaking wait!

I’m so ready for some time away from life and to just relax with some super awesome and amazing people!

I was a tad stressed this week because I was lacking in a cat sitter (#lifehappens) but I found one! Woohoo!!

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A very heartfelt post of mine was shared on the I’m Fit Possible blog yesterday. If you didn’t see it, head on over and check it out.

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Tell me: If you were to complete in an Olympic sport, what would it be? Do you have any plans for tomorrow?

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Thinking Out Loud: 2/6

Well.

Last week I mentioned I felt like I had been drinking the haterade and this week doesn’t feel much different.

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To be honest, it’s been a challenging week and there has been more tears and less sleep that I would have liked. Yes, I’m doing okay, it’s just been a challenge. I’m thankful I have a great employer that gave me the day off on Tuesday, and wonderful friends who love and support me.

Now, enough about my week.

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This picture is of a promo being run by a local radio station.

And you know what? It rubs me the wrong way.

Very much so the wrong way.

After having personal experience in how fragile a marriage can be, this really really bugs me. And this contest!? Just trivializes the whole damn thing.  Right now, if you get married, there’s a 40-50% chance you won’t make it. Think about that. How many things would you do if you knew you had a 50/50 chance of failure?

I certainly didn’t get married thinking I’d get a divorce; heck, it wasn’t even an option for me. And yet, a radio station thinks it’s okay to get married and then, 90.3 hours later get divorced?!

That just hurts my heart.

I get that being extreme and creating controversy creates ratings, but do we really need to trivialize marriage in order to get those ratings?!

Unrelated: Miley Cyrus. Really?!

Given the laws around divorce in Canada (you must be separated for 1 year before one will be granted) I suspect this won’t be a legally binding marriage, but regardless or the legality or not, I find the entire concept behind this deplorable.

Tell me: What are your thoughts on this contest? Does it rub you the wrong way like it does me?

I’ve linked up with Amanda for her weekly thinking out loud post.

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Thinking Out Loud: 1/30

Happy Thursday, my friends!

Just one more sleep until Friday!!

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Once again I’m linking up with the adorable Spoons for Thinking Out Loud.

I originally had a different post written for today, but when I read it I thought I sounded a bit like a jerk. And, well, I try really hard to not be a jerk, so I’m not posting it, and instead you’ll get a bunch of random thoughts today. #sorrynotsorry

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I haven’t run since Sunday.

I was going to on Tuesday to give my new shoes a try, but….I didn’t. But – I am running today. This is officially day one of my ultra marathon training. Eeps.

Somebody hold me?

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I feel like I’m in a winter funk. This is probably why I wrote a post that made me sound a bit like a jerk, because uh, winter.

To be honest, January was pretty nice for us, but I want warm and sun.

I totally get why people say spring or fall are their favourite seasons, because it’s pretty, but for me? Summer. Hands down.

There’s really no such thing as “too hot” to me. Nope. Not at all.

(Except maybe if it’s 32C and I have to run, but I’ll still do it).

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While writing this I just ate an entire container of raspberries.

So. Good.

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I found my dream teapot yesterday.

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I didn’t buy it, but I’m adding it to my list.

I did buy a new tea, though.

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Guys, it’s so, so good.

I made a pot of it last night and yum.

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I have absolutely nothing planned for this weekend.

I’m not certain if I should be excited for a relaxing weekend, or look for something to do.

Ha. Rough life I lead, huh? 🙂

I mean, I’m pretty certain there will be waffles on Sunday, Waffle Sunday is totally a thing, right?! Other than that? Not much planned.

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Tell me: what’s random in your world today?

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